January is almost over and its has felt unlike other starts to the year, i don't feel like the month has dragged on tbh. I know others do and i hear often how long this month is but in all honesty i think for me its passed by quickly. What i will say is that its felt very different to other Januarys.
I ll run through my thoughts and feelings,
First of all i have seen so much updates and news of many people starting new jobs, inspiring quotes of how energized and excited people are. New year new me !! Big things for 2026. All brilliant news and short quotes that truly do make me feel happy for others. The stark reality for me is that i don't feel like that at all. I don't have that energy and drive i have felt in the past. Im tired, lethargic and low on self esteem. I feel sad at times and alone in my thoughts.
I wonder if people really thinking the way they share these things or is there a pressure to only put positive messages out on some platforms. Showing a version that just isn't how we are really feeling.
I have days where making it through is the win like i have achieved something. I have days of feeling down and under pressure to achieve but in reality its harder than it seems.
Just a thought and sharing what is reality for me.