Just a really short thought and moment of reflection since this started a few weeks ago.
In short the blog is starting to have a real impact on me, its starting to help me understand myself a lot more and what the impact of this has on me. I have no idea if anyone actually reads me blabber and blurb but that's ok. Maybe somewhere if this is been read it might just help others in a similar situation.
The weekend has passed and i have to admit it was a good few days, a few things happened that actually put a smile on the face and in the current world i am living in this is a good thing. I was out for drinks on Saturday and something happened that really made me think about how i am impacted by others. I spent a few hours sat next to someone who did not stop talking all night. On top of this also tapping and grabbing my arm from time to time. Now i suppose this person didn't even think about this or notice what this was doing to me. I don't really think i would of said much but i couldn't get a word in edgeways. I went to the loo and it was like they had been put on pause for a few minutes. I actually found it quite funny tbh.
I think i have thought about this quite a lot and laughed at times, that could have really impacted me in a negative way but its actually had the opposite effect. I was out and didn't need to talk, i listened and i don't actually remember one bit that was said. Just goes to show the whole point of this is too not feel alone and have the confidence to speak. However sometimes it can help just staying how we are!