Really tough at the minute and i don't know where to start writing,
I am probably feeling as low and lonely as i have for a while, this is really hard and tough to write but feel like getting something out is going to help at some point. I feel empty from head to toe and parts of me are just a bit numb. Nothing bad has happened to cause this but things have changed a bit over the last week. I have tried to speak out and tried to get my voice heard only to be shut down mid sentence. This is just an automatic shut down within me. The confidence goes and just makes me feel like what's the point of even trying to speak.
This is really hurtful to write about, it hurts because i just felt i could actually say what i was feeling and how i feel to someone close to me. Its backfired massively. Im confused now, I wanted to get something out my system and just have the chance to get my point across but couldn't. Why when you speak is it ok to stop someone else from putting something out there. Why did my words become the actions of someone else, allowing them to become a victim. The mind is talking to me and not helping me through this. Its actually making me feel isolated and separated from everything.
I had started to get to a point where i thought i was starting to make some sense of my thoughts and feelings and getting the strength to talk out loud. Now that feels like its all gone away. The opportunity has passed me by and i feel like S**t. That may seem harsh but that's the reality of how this is. I wanted to talk and share what's inside but the minute its a bit tough the words are twisted and thrown back at me!!
This might just make sense to someone and if so let us know!